Life Lately

Life lately has been incredibly weird, busy, and a little overwhelming. I made a goal to blog every day this month, and well… that hasn’t happened at all. This morning, I woke up in my grandparent’s house in St. George. After spending most of this past week in Colorado with Griffin’s parents we headed down to St. George with my family to see Newsies at the Tuacahn. It’s been a fun week, and I’ll be a little sad when it’s back to real life.

But as I sat thinking this morning, I couldn’t help but ask myself “am I happy with my life right now?” “am I happy with who I am right now?” That second question hit me hard because, in a lot of ways, the answer is no. I notice myself complaining all too often, over things that usually don’t matter. I feel as though I’ve been lazy for no reason at all and not really having the motivation to do anything.  Thankfully, some of these might be easier fixes than others.

Why I blog.

It’s funny how I set a goal to blog every day this month, I even planned out a post for every day. Posts that I still hope to write in the future, but this month it wasn’t happening. I had no desire to sit down and write blog posts. This morning I was scrolling through Instagram and I clicked on a blogger that I used to read religiously, and she made it easy, as she blogs every weekday, but I clicked on her blog and started to read. I have always LOVED reading Stephanie Nielson’s blog. Her words fill me with hope, and even though not all of our personal values are exactly the same, I find so much joy as I read her blog.

And that’s when it hit me.

I’ve been trying so hard to make my blog into something that I don’t want. I follow a lot of bloggers on social media, but I realized that I haven’t actually been reading their blogs all that much. I mean, I do sometimes, but most of the time what they are talking about isn’t interesting to me. But NieNie Dialogues was interesting to me again today.

Living the life I want.

I want to blog, write, read, and be me. I created this blog so that I could share my story with the world, that’s the purpose of it. If you’re looking for a fashion blogger or a blogger who writes about blogging, you’re not going to find it here.

Life get’s crazy sometimes, and I feel like this is a lesson I’ve learned over and over again, that I need to hold fast to my values. I don’t need to be anyone else. I’m Taylor, and that’s enough. Books are my favorite thing, talking about mental health is important to me, sharing my experiences helps me move forward. So, I may not be the most popular blogger, maybe I’ll never be Instagram famous, but even from the beginning, those things haven’t mattered to me.

Keeping it real.

I want to be real about my challenges, but also my victories. Talking about mental health helps me dig deep into the emotions that I’m feeling but don’t always want to acknowledge. Being real on my blog and in life is important to me. So, I guess all these jumbled thoughts from today come down to this, a promise to my readers.

I promise to write fairly consistently on my blog (at least once a week.) I promise to write about life, mental health, books, and all the things that I’m passionate about. And I promise to keep it real, and I hope you do the same.

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Thankful Thursday: Holiday Weekend

I love Holiday’s! And Holiday weekends are the best, time spent with family, friends, and making memories. Since Monday was Memorial Day, I went with my mom and sister to the cemetery’s close by and then headed home. Griffin and I made homemade Ice cream (I’ll share the recipe at some point) and invited some friends over. It was a good time!

What I’m thankful for this week:

  • The holiday, obviously. Gotta love the long weekends!
  • Persephone sleeping 6-7 hours at a time!! This is huge! We’re finally getting more sleep.
  • Going on walks. Griff and I get to talk about our day and whatever is on our mind, plus we get exercise (and then the dog is sleepy!)
  • Podcasts. I started listening to a few new ones this week at work and on my commute. I LOVE IT! Do you listen to Podcasts, if so, which ones?
  • MH Twitter chats. I’ve joined in on a few mental health chats on twitter and I love the MH community. I gain so much from each of the chats and I get to connect with people.

Life Update:

  • We rearranged our furniture to open up our space. We know have a couch against the window, which makes it so Persephone doesn’t want to go outside every five minutes. The window has a ledge that Persephone now walks on and sits on. Basically, she’s a cat.
  • Griffin’s been sick, caught some sort of bug. I hope he gets better soon!
  • We had people over! Since we’ve been married we’ve had 2 get togethers (averages 1 per year I guess) we like people, but we also like it being just us. Granted, we have had 1 or 2 people over at a time more than this, but we’ve only had a larger number of people over twice.
  • I made a plan to blog every day in the month of June! (Well, Monday – Friday) All about books and mental health! I’m so excited to share these posts with you!

I think that’s it for this week. We’re enjoying the warmer weather and I love that it’s starting to feel like summer (even though I’m still just working full time!) What have you been up to this week?

 

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Thankful Thursday + Life Update

I recently found a new blog where the blogger posts what she’s thankful for every Monday! I loved the idea, and wanted to try it out. So, here we are, Thankful Thursday.

Here’s what I’m thankful for this week:

  • New office decorations at work, I love the way it looks now! I had nothing to do with the decorations, but still, pretty great!
  • Warm weather! It’s finally getting warm, which means I don’t dread going out with the dog in the middle of the night. But mostly, I’m just excited for summer! ((But it has been FREEZING the past few days, it SNOWED yesterday so maybe it’s getting warmer))
  • Good books. I’ve been reading You Are a Badass and Strange the Dreamer which I am loving! Books that I truly love have been hard to find, but I’m impressed with these ones.
  • Persephone (our pup) is finally sleeping through the night! Which basically means she sleeps from 10 to about 4-5 which is great and awesome. This doesn’t happen every night, but when it does, it’s the best thing.
  • This is my third blog post this week! I’ve been struggling to get into a normal routine with blogging. I want to post at least 3 times a week, and I’m slowly working up to that! I can’t wait to share my new content with you!

Life Update:

  • I decided to change my major (again) I’m back to Psychology. After a lot of thought about what I want to do with my life, it seems like the best fit for me. I’m excited to be going back to school in the fall, and starting with a new degree.
  • That being said, I’m still working on a book. A few weeks ago I made a five year plan for the books that I want to finish. Currently, I’m working on a book about superhero’s that I started in high school (and occasionally I work on another novel that I started in high school)
  • We started getting Winder Farms Grocery Delivery and I LOVE IT. Because it means I don’t have to go shopping! We only get a few things that we really love from Winder Farms since the price tag is a little high, but the quality is FANTASTIC. Everything else though I get from Grocery Pickup! It saves me time and I don’t have to go to the store. (Maybe someday I’ll write a post about how shopping is not my thing…)
  • I got a calling at church. This means I have an opportunity to serve. I’ll be working in Activity Days (Girls 8-11) and I’m beyond excited!

Well, that’s everything this week! I look forward to sharing my life update and the things I’m grateful for each week! (If I hosted a linkup for this topic would you join?) I hope you all have an amazing Friday, and an even better weekend! What are you thankful for this week?

 

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Monday Morning

Hey guys, it’s Monday.

I usually wake up pretty pumped on Monday mornings. Ready for the week and ready to go to work. Today was no different. Even though our AC (in our brand new apartment) doesn’t work, I had high spirit’s when I woke up this morning. Griff and I both got ready and then he left for work….

Or tried to.

His car is dead (AWESOME) so a guy from church came over to take a look and hopefully he’ll be able to fix it.

Persephone chewed a whole in my shirt. But at least she’s adorable.

Then we took Griffin to work, and on the way Persephone jumped out the window when we were at at a stop sign (is it bad that I just started to laugh?)

I made it to work though, but it’s been a crazy morning. My anxiety is high, but I was able to do some yoga. I’m ready to just work and I hope that the rest of the day will be better than this morning.

Originally I’d had a post planned about the songs that I listen to when I’m anxious. I made a playlist on Spotify (only 13 songs so far) of songs that help motivate me to get going when I’m anxious. It’s on repeat this morning. What songs pump you up?  Any I should add to my list? I’m always looking for more!

Listen to my Playlist

Anyway, I hope your Monday morning is going better than mine has gone and I hope you totally have an awesome week. I’ll check in again soon. Until then, happy Monday!

 

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